Three years ago, while talking to a friend, I noticed that it was difficult for me to express myself clearly. I used a basic vocabulary because I did not find the necessary words to make me understand. I think she did not notice it. This confusion made me feel slow.
Then, when I had to write a message to send by mail, I had the same difficulty, I did not remember the name of things and I had to make several corrections (more than usual) in what I I wrote, changed the order of words, or put letters that did not correspond, I suddenly forgot the spelling which, in my school years, had distinguished me; What was happening to me?
Living with fibromyalgia has led me to be more cautious, because as soon as something happens to me, it is very easy to think that everything comes off; Before making this conclusion, I gave him a moment before knowing if this “mental slowness” would be repeated.
The days did not change my situation is created that got worse, and could not easily solve a mathematical operation, he had to think more carefully as if it was a complicated equation; to write, talk and even think, it was difficult.
How? you can ask yourself; to try to explain myself better I will use as an example to talk about a “table”:
Under normal conditions, you can talk about the table simply by naming it:
“Yesterday I left your books on the dinner table”
When you can not think clearly, you may not be able to name it; divagas, you have it in mind but you do not remember his name, you know what it’s all about, but you can not gather his meaning with its meaning; for example:
“Yesterday your books I left them in … mmmmm, ehh on the wooden base, the one in the next room of your kitchen”
But as I’m clarifying it, it’s just an example of what’s going on with more complex sentences or sentences when you’re not thinking clearly, and you’ll get an idea of how frustrating that is for someone who does it with fluently and without worrying about communicating properly.
I mentioned it to my neurologist, he told me about mental fog, he told me he was part of fibromyalgia syndrome (but not exclusively); I could not help but ask, “How many more symptoms do you have?” He tried to make me understand that since the origin of this syndrome is still not certain, only the coincident symptoms have been observed with other patients. some experience this mental fog while others still do not show up having experienced it.
The mental fog imposes a new challenge to the fibromyalgia patient, we have to face the fact that to write or to speak or simply to think that we need more energy than usual, we can not simply call the table “table” because we can not speak
This fog is also suffered by those who do not have a good night’s sleep, or by those who sleep even those who reach their stress limits; because the brain needs a complete rest and when it receives stimuli during its rest time, it is overloaded and does not render its maximum capacity; just remember the nights spent at the university working early in the morning, attending the class at 7am and without knowing where we were standing is the mental fog of fibromyalgia.
It has become so common that they call it Fibro-Fog, apparently Fibromyalgia’s brain does not rest once it falls asleep, many of us have also suffered long periods of insomnia; then, it must be supposed that the brain, when it does not receive a resting rest, is overexcited and in a permanent state of vigilance without necessity.
One thing we need to learn about fibromyalgia is that when we believe that we already know enough, something new is always happening, which forces us to take things at the same time, because everything seems to be going well. in slow motion.
This disease is the challenge of going slower, in a convulsive and unrestrained world, it is to learn to see ourselves and to perceive ourselves in another way, more thoughtful and between inspirations and sighs.